I think you need to really enjoy sex with your partner to experience an orgasm but with Ramesh, it is just hard and rough banging. So I resort to reading stories here and fingering myself to satisfy my urges because that is the only best choice I have.
I simply don’t have the courage to look outside for sexual relief from other men. You can call me a coward or whatever, it doesn’t matter to me. By this time, I was also on anti-depressant medication to keep my sanity… I have read all stories by Preeti and many other authors.
Quite a few of those stories particularly about Sabitri, Karishma, Reena, Laila and Anita really intrigued me and quickly became my mainstream fantasies. I was now horny all the time visualising myself to be the lead character in those stories and the intensity of my orgasms greatly improved.
But we all know, the orgasms you experience when masturbating yourself compared to the ones you experience while being with a real man is beyond comparison. My frustration fuelled by the urge to experience really good sex was driving me insane with each passing day.
I was getting irritable for no reason. I felt compelled to reach out to Preeti regarding her stories. I finally got in touch with her to understand if what was written in her stories were fantasies… I was shocked and surprised to learn that all her stories were based on real life incidents.
So if it was written there then it actually happened in someone’s life… Then I shared the details of my life and other details with her. She confidently came back telling me that if I wanted then I too could also enjoy life like the women in her stories.
The best part was she was willing to guide me to experience everything I dreamt about. Then I shared with her all my challenges and restrictions and the small town which I live in. Despite this, she still stuck to her statement with full confidence saying it was still very possible.
All that I needed was to make up my mind to take the plunge. I took some time off to think about this because for me this was going to be a very BIG life changing decision. I had to consider all the risks and consequences that came with it. One small mistake and my marriage would be ruined.
My husband would divorce me without second thoughts. My In-laws would throw me out without doubt… my parents would definitely disown me leaving me to fend on my own. There was no way I could support myself and my baby on my own. So I had a lot at stake here to take lightly…
A few months flew by wherein I would desperately pray to god every night that my hubby would get in the mood for sex but that never happened. My frustration grew with each passing day and my desperation touched newer heights.
I spent countless nights fingering myself to a release while my husband slept snoring right next to me. Finally, nearly six more months later I gave up all hopes on Ramesh… my husband. I made up my mind because I knew I didn’t deserve to suffer like this especially because it is not my fault!!!