“… but?“, she asked.
“Nothing.“
“What?“
“Nothing…“
He looked at her.
“… well, not something I NEED per se,” he said.
She smiled.
“Okay.“
“And I don’t want you to feel pressured in any way.“
“Sure. Now spill it.“
“Right. Okay. Well, it’s something… something I think I’d find… pretty hot.“
“M-hm.“
“Some things you might… say to me.“
“Yes?“
“Like, for instance, how you’re really horny for his cock.“
“I can certainly say that, no problem. Obviously“
“Nice. I like hearing you say that.“
He bit his lip.
Chapter 6 – Zelophilia
“But…” he continued, “… maybe also if you told me that HE makes you horny. Him, not me. Or the thought of him. And HIS cock, not mine.“
“… okay..?“
“What?“
“It’s just… I mean, I’m 100% okay with you telling me this, really… but… I just don’t think I understand. Wouldn’t it make you jealous?“
“Yes.“
He looked at the floor.
“… and maybe…“, he continued.
“Yes?“
“… that’s kind of the point.“
“What?“
“Maybe…“, his voice was frail, “… maybe that’s what turns me on…“
“Being jealous?“
“Yes. Or more accurately, you making me jealous.“
“Hm.“
“You don’t have to do it. It’s fine.“
“No, no, it’s all good. I just don’t understand.“
“Well, neither do I, to be honest.“
She frowned.
“But… you’re turned on by me making you jealous?“
“Yes. It’s called zelophilia.“
“What?”
“Zelophilia. Being turned on by jealousy.“
“But… that hurts, doesn’t it?“
“… and so does spanking. It’s the same, only mentally.“
“So it’s a dominance/submission thing?“
“Oh, absolutely. The humiliation. Things like »He gives me better orgasms than you do«.“
“Okay…“
“And…“
“What?“
“You can also…“
“Yes?“
“… it’s absolutely fine if you don’t want to do it.“
“But?“
“You could maybe… it would make me very horny, if you talk about how my dick never gets hard. That he satisfies you better than me because his cock is hard.“
“Hmm…“
“It’s fine if you don’t want to do it.“
“It’s definitely pushing some boundaries.“
“Yes.“
“And maybe a little challenging for me.“
“I get it. It’s fine.“
“It’s… pretty – ‘dominance-ey’.“
“I know.“
“It’s just so… humiliating.“
“Yes.“
“Right,” she nodded in acceptance, “Yes, I get it. That’s the whole point.“
“Yes.“
“Hm. Okay.“
He cleared his throat.
“And it isn’t all about submission. The jealousy thing is also something else.“
“Hm. What?“
“Something about the intensity of the emotions. Nothing raises stronger feelings in me than you telling me about your sexual attraction to another man. And if feelings of such intensity can be transformed into arousal – that’s a hell of a lot of horniness!“
“Alright. I can kind of buy into that.“
“There’s suspense in it. Young people always fuck a whole lot more in the beginning of their relationships. Maybe it’s because they don’t take each other for granted yet? Maybe sometimes the safe harbor and absence of jealousy can lead to a not-very-horny everyday-routine kind of feeling?“
“Yes…“
“Non-monogamy is potentially risky, and danger can trigger arousal. A little jealousy might be the spark that ignites the flames of desire. Your infidelity reminds me that you don’t belong to me.“